what is change that simply turns the table

How can I change
if I don't feel
How can I feel
and not change
what change?
what is change that simply turns the table,
change that renames the enemy
but does not stop the war
when I have done evil
must evil be done to me
in order to satisfy the gods of justice
the gods of vindication
the gods of deliverance
and when the gods of justice are satisfied
by my suffering
will they not yet again return hungry
for the justice for evil done to me?
when I hate you hating me
and you hate me hating you
what solution is there
but ceasefire
can we not agree
can we not be unified
by the hatred
of hatred
or are we cycling forever
in homage to our gods
our love of hatred
our love of war
our love of rightness